Voices

Recent events have me pondering a lot of things both past and present when it comes to life especially my own.  Looking at various events in their perspective I can truly understand why some people feel alone even when they are surrounded by others.

I've  learned that some may say they love you but are not really in love with you. I've learned that when some get everything they want from you and you have nothing more to give you become useless and easily get discarded. I've learned that some say they understand but they really don't or want to. I've learnt that as long as you are doing what you are expected to and supposed to do it your up thoughts and feelings does not matter.

I've learnt that if you can't keep up with others ideal of what you should do or how you should act, you won't be able to be a part of their clique. I've learnt that no matter what you just won't be able to bring out the same feelings, happiness and joy in some people. I've learnt that you may be intelligent, hard working and the best, but that won't be enough for some.

I've learnt that if you sit long enough and observe some people actions and behaviour when you are around them, you can tell whether they really want to be around you or you are in their way but because they don't want to hurt your feelings they won't tell you anything.

I've learnt to speak less especially when my feelings and thoughts are being ignored but others are given free pass any time of the night and day to air theirs.  I've learnt how to move away and give others their space when my presence cause conversations to turn to whispers and others to walk away when I'm about so they can have privacy because I'm not supposed to hear or j ow what's happening.

I've learnt how to hold back my tears when all I want to do is cry. How to calm my emotions when I want to just scream. I've learnt how to smile through my pain and act like nothing has happened. I've learnt how to sing through it all while hurting inside.

Being strong is hard work, but for my own sake and sanity I had to learn how to be strong and hold on when all I want to really do is give up, let go and say to hell with love and life.

#SilentHearer

Deaf and Hard of Hearing

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500 Invitations in One Day

Yesterday June 14th, I had an interesting day in Brooklyn.  It was the Guyana Victory Celebration parade, celebrating 49 years of Independence and the election of a new president as well.

In the spirit of sharing, I printed 500n invitations for my Official Book release and Launch party and every last one was accepted with interest.  The funny thing is others were sharing out promotional materials as well, but at the end of the parade and the end of it all, while I was expecting to see some of my invitations on the streets, I saw nary one of mines but hundreds of others.

My new fear now is will 500 plus people turn up on July 18th and 19th for the book signing and party? 0_O Guess I will have to wait and see

Silent Hearer Pre-release Book Signing

Yayyy! The first pre-release Book Signing was a roaring success.  A big thank you to all who came out and support on May 30th at Hullabaloo Books in Brooklyn, NYC.

Don't Go Chasing

Today's Insight ~ Don't go chasing after anyone in a relationship. It is either they want to build and bond with you or they don't. Either they want to be with you exclusively or they don't, either they are in love with you and it is growing or they are just playing with your heart and feelings. 

Some people feel that they can still play around while trying to make you believe that you are the one. All the red flags are waving and they are continuously lying and covering up from you because they don't want to loose the diamond in their pockets while they enjoy fake stones. Know your worth and leave them to their games. One day someone will come along who will love and appreciate you for the person that you are and what you bring to the relationship. ‪#‎evaluateyourrelationship‬

Distractions

Today's Sage Advice ~ In a relationship you have to first admit that there will be distractions and others who will try to over step their boundaries and be a part of your relationship because they feel that they are the "other woman/man", been there first or they are the one, not you.

They will do things to stir you up and have you doubting and questioning your partner love, commitment and faithfulness towards you because they will literally keep throwing themselves at your partner.  At the end of the day how your partner respond to that says a lot about your partner commitment towards you, because if they are encouraging it, then you will need to have a reality check about your relationship and just who or what your partner want as part of their life.  #knowyourworth

If you find yourself waiting...

Today's Point to Ponder from my Pen ~ If you find yourself waiting on that text message, that whatsapp, that phone call or email but the other person don't have time for you because they has "others" that they need to speak to first and "get out of the way" before you get your turn, you are in an unhealthy relationship, no matter how much they tell you that you are #1 and they love you. 

The love of your life can never be that busy that they can't return your text message, your whatsapp, your phone call or email promptly, but as soon as someone else calls them or message them they instantly pick up the phone or reply to the email.

You can't be be the one and only, if you are getting the crumbs from the table while others get priority treatment. It's time to reevaluate your relationship and know your worth. ‪#‎knowyourworth‬